It's me. again. same time, in the middle of the night, with a lot of thoughts that need to be thrown.
Hmmm, where should I start?
Emotion, familiar with this word? People said that it is better to keep your mouth shout when you are in emotional state. I learnt the lesson.
Goodbye is a word that is easy to said, but it is very hard to understand the meaning of it. Yes, few months ago i mentioned earlier that I will put an ending to this unspoken feelings, but then it is very hard to do it. and again, i cannot control my feelings and ended up confessed everything to him. such a fool, aren't I?
It is not like I want to have relationship with him, I'm happy enough with my current situation. But again, this stupid emotion drove me. I felt jealous, angry, when ends he replied to the person-i-hate-the-most comment, when he doesn't even bother to reply mine.
yeah, I know. I shouldn't feel this way. His reply after that stabbed me. He said that "It should't be a problem between friends right?" . I feel like crying hearing those words. Yes, I'm just your friend. but am I feel greedy to ask for some special treatment?Not just---- friend?
I used to be your best friend after all and I really miss those moment now, especially when I have no one that could really understand me here.
all those feelings mixed up within me. I still want him to be my friend, yet I still have some lingering feelings for him. Now, he doesn't reply my message again, but I don't think that I could persuade him to reply it after I heard his words. I don't want him to feel forced my me, after all.
Someday, I hope he could read this and understand my feelings. I gave him this this blog though, but I don't think he will be bother to check it. :(
hahahaha, where was I just now? Yeah, It is better to close your mouth, tie your hands when you feeling something. You never know what you might do.
6 comments:
Tashu.. dun be sooo sensitive like this okay???
no need to text him anymore, at least, sampe perasaan itu jadi netral? lu pasti punyaa banyaakkk temen di sana, lagipula malay kan bukan kota kecil, go hang out, be crazy, think another person except him, try to control ur heart... even it's hard. yeah, i can feel it too. come on beibbyyy, jia you :*
hahahaha, if you can see me here, you will be surprised with my craziness jey.. :p
lanjutannya di fb ya dear, will tell you the reason there :)
craziness? hmh~
but dunno why, i always believe that u-wont be that sensitive. That word isnt match with the sanguinis person like you. hohoho.. euh.. wanna move to malaysia~ wishing for the good life here, but bored too much. >__<"
Hahahahahaha, really? maybe my melancholic side drove me too far then :p
heee, move here move here! si jeffri aja mau pindah sini lohhh.. lo kapan ni? XD
tashu... really want to move dahling. hiks.. :( gonna feel lonely again . T__T after danny go back, and u too.. then my world gonna be soooo flat. :( :( just now feeling down after holiday. lol. T_T
aih, cheer up!yo can always reach me on my message, and forced danny to go back also..
lets talk on skype!i've been through a lot of things lately.. *sigh :(
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