Light

I was trying to be the light for you, to be the chest that you can stand on.. But why did I felt like I am the second choice for you?
I'm not the person that you will turn to when you need advice.
I'm not an ear to choose when you need someone to listen.
Even i'm not the one that you choose to know your story. Oh, wait..
You didn't even looking at me.

why it is so hard now?
I want to come back to those times, when it is easier for us to talk and listen.
My thoughts are full of unspoken words that I want to say to you, but my lips are sealed..

Dreams

After finishing high school, I've been trapped in choices and decisions. Where I should go after graduating? what major should I choose? but all of these questions coming from the same phrase. What is my dream?

To be honest, I don't know what is my dream. Yes, I have my hobby, I have my passion, but "dream" is a faraway words that I never found. In the end, I just go with the flow. Following the path that opened for me. Luckily, it's not a wrong choice. Even though many people underestimated me because of this major but I feel relieve because I know, I didn't made a wrong turn. couple days ago, I saw my friend status that saying she's going to canada for exchange program. I've been burning with jealousy and hatred, and I was thinking. Why I'm here? I want to go there and I know, that I have all the qualifications that needed to go there!
From that day, I've been looking for any opportunities for me to go overseas, other places. and also, from that day I know, what my dream is.

I WANT TO SEE THE WORLD. 

I tried so hard to be involved in something, to be part of a community. I swallowed my pride, and trying. all of that is to achieve this goal in the end. I don't want to be nobody, someone people can just walk though and didn't notice her. I want to left something in people's memories, I want to see what world's can offer..

I don't want to trapped here, in my safe zone. Yes, I know that the world's can't harm me there, but really, I want to be something, someone, you named it. 

But is it that hard to achieve? Should I just give up?