I'm lost. Lost in this matter doesn't mean that I couldn't find my way or what, but then I feel that I am lost now. I'm in the state where I didn't know what I should do, nor I didn't know my dreams, nor I didn't know my goal. I changed, those naive-full of dreams little girl have grown into dreamless mature women. I thought so many times, when it started to go wrong?but then the time clock so quickly and there's no way back to the way it was.while I go on, I want to find what I want to do, I want to defeat myself and changed, I want to learn not to depend on person since it can easily betrayed you. all is not sincere, it just another way to get some benefit from your acquittance and well, I did the same thing to them.
God, I want to back to the way I way, strong and sincere, and find my own happiness..
Monday, 19 March 2012
Sunday, 11 March 2012
Broken Heart
Aku sering bertanya, kadang. mengapa inspirasi untuk mengisi blog ini selalu datang di saat yang kurang tepat. Pagi buta, langit gelap, selalu jadi suasana yang menemaniku saat menulis di blog ini.
Okay, stop with this intermezzo. sekarang, aku ingin mengutarakan hal yang menjadi pokok pemikiranku saat ini.
Have you experience broken heart? broken heart adalah suat situasi dimana hubungan kita tidak berjalan dengan lancar, dan perasaan kita tak berbalas. sakit rasanya, duniamu terasa gelap, dan yang ada di pikiranmu hanya dia, dia, dan dia. kau tidaklah lagi bisa berpikir dengan jernih karena pikiranmu kosong dan otakmu dikendalikan oleh hatimu.
pada banyak kasus, patah hati menjadi sesuatu yang ekstrim karena dapat berujung dengan perbuatan yang merugikan diri sendiri seperti berhenti makan, melupakan sekolah dan hal penting lainnya, melukai diri sendiri, atau yang terburuk, bunuh diri.
mengapa semua ini dapat terjadi?karena orang mulai mengatasnamakan semua kegiatan yang mereka prbuat itu "atas nama cinta". cinta seharusnya dapat membuatmu bahagia bukan?
kalau itu sampai erusak dirimu apakah itu tetap cinta?
kita tetap harus dapat berpikir jernih dan memikirkan langkah kita ke depan. jalan kita masih panjang, seseorang pergi buka berarti tidak akan ada orang yang bisa mengisi lubang kosong itu. lift up your head and walk away!
:)
Okay, stop with this intermezzo. sekarang, aku ingin mengutarakan hal yang menjadi pokok pemikiranku saat ini.
Have you experience broken heart? broken heart adalah suat situasi dimana hubungan kita tidak berjalan dengan lancar, dan perasaan kita tak berbalas. sakit rasanya, duniamu terasa gelap, dan yang ada di pikiranmu hanya dia, dia, dan dia. kau tidaklah lagi bisa berpikir dengan jernih karena pikiranmu kosong dan otakmu dikendalikan oleh hatimu.
pada banyak kasus, patah hati menjadi sesuatu yang ekstrim karena dapat berujung dengan perbuatan yang merugikan diri sendiri seperti berhenti makan, melupakan sekolah dan hal penting lainnya, melukai diri sendiri, atau yang terburuk, bunuh diri.
mengapa semua ini dapat terjadi?karena orang mulai mengatasnamakan semua kegiatan yang mereka prbuat itu "atas nama cinta". cinta seharusnya dapat membuatmu bahagia bukan?
kalau itu sampai erusak dirimu apakah itu tetap cinta?
kita tetap harus dapat berpikir jernih dan memikirkan langkah kita ke depan. jalan kita masih panjang, seseorang pergi buka berarti tidak akan ada orang yang bisa mengisi lubang kosong itu. lift up your head and walk away!
:)
Thursday, 1 March 2012
Dios
"God is the best listener, you dont need to shout nor cry out loud. Because he hears even the very silent prayer of a sincere heart."
The topic that I want to talk for today is a bit unusual, but it gave me a deep impression and I cannot hold myself for talk about it. right now, I'm in a current state when I really need someone to listen but unluckily, no one was there for me. this topic is now something that I can talk to people because it contains my darkest secret. at that time, I was really depressed, but still i cannot gather my courage to talk to anyone, especially the source of my thought. when I saw the quote, I cannot hold myself for crying, because right now I broken my promise with God and He is like send his message to me that He is still there to listen?
This is the first time I felt that God totally speak to me. I really hope that He can give me strength and guide to through this problem.I'm lost and totally need someone to be my cicerone, before I'm falling deeper to this state of madness.
The topic that I want to talk for today is a bit unusual, but it gave me a deep impression and I cannot hold myself for talk about it. right now, I'm in a current state when I really need someone to listen but unluckily, no one was there for me. this topic is now something that I can talk to people because it contains my darkest secret. at that time, I was really depressed, but still i cannot gather my courage to talk to anyone, especially the source of my thought. when I saw the quote, I cannot hold myself for crying, because right now I broken my promise with God and He is like send his message to me that He is still there to listen?
This is the first time I felt that God totally speak to me. I really hope that He can give me strength and guide to through this problem.I'm lost and totally need someone to be my cicerone, before I'm falling deeper to this state of madness.
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